Diary of an Adoption p.1 (by Amanda)

July 28, 2006

This has been one of the hardest and joyful weeks of my life. I didn’t get much sleep Sunday night but I figured I could make it up later. Little did I know what God was doing. Wednesday Gail Warner (one of the missionary nurses in Koutiala) called us and asked if we would consider adopting twins. We immediately began to discuss it. “Yes” was the only option we could imagine. These beautiful babies whose mom died are now in Koutiala and we will probably be able to see them in less than a week. I have dreamed about having kids for so long I am struggling to believe that God may actually be blessing me with not just one child but two. I feel so unworthy of His grace and goodness and yet He may be bestowing on me the gift of life. Two little girls for me to raise is the ultimate responsibility. He may be charging me with their spiritual, emotional, and physical growth. I cannot describe the depths of my feelings at this moment. I waiver between weeping and fear and joy. I do not know what tomorrow may bring and if we truly get these children it will be a gift to raise them. I only pray that I will do it to the glory of God. I want them to know God, but I also want them to understand the overwhelming depth of His love and the love God has bestowed on me to give to them.