Diary of an Adoption p.12 (by Amanda)

August 7
Hannah is not having severe diarrhea, but she is still having some. We have tried tube feeding but she was so fussy we went back to bottle feeding. Gail just gave her to me so she could get to sleep because Hannah has just continued with this pitiful cry. I have been reading my Bible and praying. There is nothing like having children to bring out our most basic need of God. In my heart I have dedicated them both to God. I know God can use them in His glory. I prayed for healing for Hannah and to bring comfort to sleep. I really believe God gave an immediate answer because she is now restng peacefully in her car seat. I am going to continue ready verses and praying. God looked down; He saw how black and selfish my heart is and yet He chose to overlook it because of His Son and went above and beyond all I deserve and gave me the very desires of my heart: two beautiful children to care for. With each day that brings more meaning as I try to imagine giving up Hannah or Miriam in a similar way. The other thing God gave this night was peace. I was crying broken-heartedly one moment then realized I was calm and at peace. Oh, it’s time to change Miriam. That’s all for now.