Diary of an Adoption p.13 (by Amanda)

August 12
I have been extremely busy with the twins as well as getting ready and going to field forum. Hannah has been so sick, which has caused me a great deal of fear for her. She hadn’t had anything but pedialite for three days because the formula kept causing diarrhea. God gave me this precious gift and I am afraid that he will only let me keep her for a short time. We have switched to goats milk for her and it seems to be working, but for some reason the fear remains. I know that this fear is not of God and that I need to trust Him for the outcome in our lives whether or not we feel it is good or bad. I guess my fear lies in the fact that I am afraid that His outcome will not be the one or ones I want. So I pray to God to give me joy in each moment that little Hannah lives. Today Thom and I started the paper work also so it begins and soon these little babies will be officially in our care.